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So why did a geeky web guy that sits behind a computer screen all day, helping companies drive more online sales decide to create meek? Well, we have to go back to 2002 and get inside my heart for that answer.

A Long Time Ago…

I had a just come out of a period of being unemployed for the first time and God put a job in my lap at the last moment.

It was one of the most peaceful times I can ever remember though it should have been one of the most difficult and stressful.

God knew I couldn’t handle it, so He stepped in.

Well, at this new job, I was diving into the Bible as much as I could to know more about who Jesus is and what He did.

During that time, God showed me something I had not seen before.

When I did a search on Google on “Who is God” I got back a lot of results, but most of the top 40 were junk, yikes!

I then decided to hop over and see how many people did this same search monthly (remember I’m an SEO guy) and I found that over 50 million people worldwide were doing the same search every month.

This was back in 2002.

Today, that number has almost tripled and the results that are returned by Google are better than they used to be, but as you can imagine, they aren’t the best.

Well, God put on my heart the idea to address this issue.

There was lots of great content on the web that answered this question, but it was spread all over the place and the best content was found in podcasts from leading teachers and pastors.

So I took the first step of obeying God and began to put plans together to get meek created.

Unfortunately, the human heart tends to get in the way of what God wants for us.

The Day meek Died

Fast forward a few years and I was at a new company where I headed up software development at a web agency.

We decided to look into creating meek, so I started talking to people and organizations.

A number of people that I respected tremendously stepped up to help.

But I was still a young Christian and my heart wasn’t in the right place.

My ego started to inflate with the idea of “look what I’m building” and “we can make a lot of money doing this”.

As you can imagine, things came crashing down fast.

I was frustrated, but I dropped it and forgot about meek as yet another failed idea of mine.

Looking back at that time and what we were doing, it was doomed to fail.

I didn’t know the first thing about leading product development and nobody would have used what we had in mind.

God Doesn’t Give Up On Us

Well, fast forward to 2013.

Lots of things happened in my life since 2002.

God did a lot of work on me and took me down many paths over the decade since He first introduced the idea of meek to me.

I wasn’t looking to restart it. It had been long forgotten and I was happy working with my new employer.

But God had other plans… whew!

I found myself suddenly thinking about meek and what could be done considering all of the tech changes that occurred over the last 12 years and my heart was racing.

Looking back, God hadn’t abandoned the idea, but was working on my heart so that in His time, I’d be committed to Him so that people could see Jesus, not some piece of software I would clumsily create.

But I wasn’t prepared for what I would face for the next two years.

Frustration, Distractions and Spiritual Warfare

So here I was, in Tampa, Florida, at the time, working for Google and God was poking me to get meek going again.

I knew I didn’t have the funds to create what was needed, so my little brain thought “lets go find a Christian investor”.

So I started finding some angel investors and talked with them about the vision for meek.

Though they liked the idea, they were burnt out investing in Christian entrepreneurs.  Huh?!

I started really questioning myself.  Did God really want me to do this or was I simply imagining it?

Then God hit me hard.

I needed to get off of my butt, stop trying to take shortcuts and do the work needed.

But how? I hadn’t been a programmer or a designer in a very long time and this was too big a job for one person.

Then God revealed the way.

I had to do what I know and that is running a web agency.

That didn’t sit well with me because I had been there/done that already and told myself I wouldn’t do it again.

But of course, you don’t say no to God. Duh!

Well, the web agency got off the ground and I was able to pick up customers pretty quickly, including companies that were waaaaay beyond what I should have been able to.  God was in this though.

So I found some developers that seemed to have the skills I needed.  I had been using them on other projects successfully and it seemed like the right decision.

They began work, but it was taking a long time.

We had to keep starting over code that should not have been difficult.

This dragged on for a year because I liked the team, but I eventually found out through lots of questioning that they didn’t know how to do what we were wanting.

My frustration level was hitting the roof but God kept pushing me forward.

Then a new developer showed up and was able to accomplish in two weeks what the other team had taken almost a year. Woohoo!

It was a huge breath of fresh air.

But we could only move forward based on the budget I had available, which wasn’t much and this slowed down the project.

We were two weeks from releasing our very first beta version and out of the blue, the developer decided to focus on other projects. Noooooo!

This was a painful step back.

It was also a painful time personally.

My Mom had cancer and passed away at about the same time.

So I put meek on hold (not enough funds, not enough time, not enough personal spirit to continue and a high level of frustration).

I couldn’t see it at the time, but looking back at this 2 year period, I can see where spiritual warfare was taking place. Things were happening that just didn’t make any sense.

But God didn’t let go of me!

Through both an uptick in business and a small inheritance left by my Mom, I was able to get meek going again and funded with a much stronger team.

God is awesome! I don’t understand His timing at all, but over the years, I’ve learned (and continue to learn) that He is the boss of this project, not me.

Why meek?

So circling back around to answer this question, why meek?

First and foremost, because God put it on my heart and I can clearly see the path to this point that He has had me on to prepare me for it.

Second, because the world needs Jesus and the Internet is a powerful tool for telling people about what He did and why.

So, want to be a part of what we are doing?

Just let me know, we can use all the help we can get.

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